Today, I’m writing on my blog, from my heart. Letting you in…except I don’t know who I am letting in. It feels like I am writing to nobody and sending it nowhere hoping someone will read it, kind of like a cyber message in a bottle.
What would make good story for you to read is the non-public side of my life, the inside, the part of me that I protect. It would expose my life that is filled with pride, the bullheadedness of a man often too big for his own britches; a faithless man surprised by a flawlessly faithful God. Having faith in God who is able to do exceeding beyond all that you ask or think. Sounds good to me. But it doesn’t work for me. Let me tell ya, I can very easily understand wandering in the wilderness for 40 years. I hope I get it on to before that. I don’t even have 40 years left!
I am going back to Haiti Wednesday, August 4th and returning on the 9th. Many people know this because I have sent letters asking them to consider giving to the poor and to help the people of Haiti through this ministry. Every time I write, I really feel like I have worn out my welcome because I go so often, at least two or three times a year. If I only went once a year it might be more tolerable. But I keep going to Haiti, and I keep writing letters. Each time I do I think that I will receive very little or no financial support to bring along to those in real need, the people I know and the people I want to help. I’ve said to myself, “Your trip was too last minute; there is a ton of people going on short term missions during the summer, they got their letters out ahead of you; did you ever hear of donor fatigue; unemployment; too much month not enough money; recession; revolving credit debt?” You name it, I have thought of it. Notwithstanding any doubt of mine, any faithless thought of mine, God’s heart for the poor is huge. He provides for their every need. In the 10 days since I sent out my first letter for this trip, God has been graciously surprising me, “again” with His faithfulness and generosity.
Being “surprised” by His provisions is sad. Thankfully, His Grace is sufficient, and this blog post can be more about His faithfulness than mine.
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